Life is an interesting place isn't it?

It seems to be that the older I get the less I understand life's choices and trials. Lately I have often found myself Stuck with this emptiness that I haven't felt in a lot of years. What are these feelings and why didn't I feel them when I was suppose to 13 yrs ago? I don't understand all of the reasons why I need to deal with this now instead of when my Dad passed, but I do know one thing is that I haven't ever been this close to my intuition in my life. It seems to be that I am more in tune with my emotions, and feelings. Everything seems so deep and meaningful. I think I'm finely coming out of my shell and everything just seems so real. I'm pretty sure it has something to do with me not wanting to live through everyone else. I need to make all decisions on my own and not care what everyone else thinks or says. I have a feeling this will be a constant struggle.

I bet you all thought I forgot this blog existed!!!

It seems like ages sence I wrote last on here. I have had a roller coaster life for the past year. Loseing hope, trying to stay aflot, figuring out life's purposes, making huge decisions, etc. I have come to terms with the fact that no matter what I do or how much I try to please everyone, there will always be someone in my life that doesn't agree or choses to be offended by the decisions I make and the roads in life that I chose. I have been so focused on what everyone thinks that I haven't been able to make the proper decisions in life. This is my own fault. I have worked really hard the past year to change this. I have had a really hard time with this because I thought it was being selfish, but it isn't I need to focus on my own life and my own decisions. I need to do what is best for me and if others don't like it I can't be effected, so here are some of the events that have happened the last few months.




I got a great nephew Russell Adam Williams in March. From my Neice and Nephew Chaney and Doran Williams. Isn't he adorable? I think so.

I found a great love for making cupcakes, it is so much fun, so I made some for my sister Virginia's Birthday in April.




My Nephew Marcus played the piano for Cargegie Hall in New York!!! This is Totally awesome. We were all so proud of him, this is a great acomplishment. Mom was so excited to fly there and see him play.
My Nephew Jerry graduated from High School and got Called to a mission in California. We are all so proud of him also, and excited for him. This is a huge acomplishement in his life.


We Celebrated my Mom's 70th Birthday this year. We had a party for her and my nephew Matthew who turned 9 at a park in Boise Idaho. It was a lot of fun.






I got a new great neice Lauran Abigail Cox. From my neice and nephew Kim and Michael Cox. She is so adorable and precious. I could have held her all day!! This is their second child.










And Last but not least I made a huge scary decision in my life to quit my job, leave everything and pick up and move to St George Utah. I need a change and I need to move things around in my life, so here I am moved in with my sister Bonnie, searching everyday for a job or two or three, and starting over. I'm hoping this is the last time I have to do this. I would really like to find that place where I can stay for a long time. Longer then a year or two. here are some pics of my travels on the road.

Music Fest 2010

Way too many people here today!!! Hot, muggy, crowded, sucky view, and completely crazy! The music was awesome however and I ended up having a good time!

Monster Jam 2010

My Boss got me free tickets to the Monster Truck Jam so I took my nephews. We had so much fun. I don't remember the last time I saw those boys so happy and giddy!!!! I love to see them smile!

Lost and Found!

I found this little stray puppy in my neighborhood. I feel so bad for little animals who are negleted by their owners. These owners don't want anything to do with it. It is a little 6-8month old brown and black chihuahua! I wish so much I could keep the little guy. He is the sweetest thing and has such a cute personality. I am looking for a home for him so I don't have to take him to the Humane Society! People make me ANGRY!!!!! why do they get animals if they don't want to take care of them and why wouldn't they just find it another home instead of just letting it loose in the neighborhood and letting it freeze in the winter? I'm actually supprised that it is still alive. I have been trying to catch it sence Nov. I don't know how it stayed alive this long!

THE BIGGEST LOSER!!!

I have decided to try out for the biggest loser! I'm am totally excited! My sister and I are going to SLC this weekend. I really hope we get on. I know it will help us both so much!

The Holidays!!

This year the Holidays have been quite great! We have a new sister in the Idaho clan now and it was so nice to spend christmas with her and her three boys. We haven't been able to do that in a while. It has also been nice having her live here. I have had someone to hang out with on my days off and I have been able to spend lots of time with her boys.
Christmas went by fairly quickly but it was enjoyable. We had our fair share of the flu epidemic but we have hopefully surpassed that and can enjoy the new year. I can't believe it is 2010 already! I hope everyone has had a great Christmas Holiday!

Happy New Year Everyone!!