The hardest weekend of my life!

This past weekend was your funeral and was nearly impossible for my emotions. I found myself so sick to my stomach. I cried harder then I have ever cried in my life, random things would make me just sobb. It was hard to see you in that stupid box, it made me mad, sad and plain unhappy. I just kept saying to myself "This isn't right, This shouldn't be happening." We were supposed to grow old and grey together, we were suposed to have girls nights in the nursing home laughing about our childhood and the stupid things we all did. You were suposed to watch your kids grow up, get married and acomplish so many things in their lives. We were supposed to end this life together not one of us leave so young.
I'm relieved that your not in pain anymore, but my heart is sad that I can't hug you or talk to you or go through lifes experiences with you. Thank you Renae for this wonderful poem.

God saw you getting tired and a cure was not to be. So He put his arms around you and whispered "Come with Me." With tearful eyes I watched you, and saw you pass away. Although I loved you dearly, I could not make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest. God broke my heart to prove to me he only takes the best. Put this on your status if there is someone in Heaven you miss every day. I love you Whitney Fuller Dow, and I always will. You will forever be in my heart.

There is a hole in my heart and a pain that I can't shake.

Whitney you are my best friend. We have been through a lot together for many years. When you told me you had colon cancer three years ago I knew this day would eventually come. No matter how hard I have tried to prepare myself I find this day that it was all a waste of time, because as the years have taught me you can never prepare emotions. I have cryed so much in the past 24 hrs sence I learned of your passing that the stress of it has created an ache in my body. This week is going to be really tough on all of us you have left behind, but even though I am extreemly sad, I am greatful that you are no longer in pain. You will always have a place in my heart and I will always love you. I am so extreemly greatful that I have had the pleasure of having you in my life. You have taught me to have strength, bravery, and to live my life as best as I can and to enjoy every moment. I will miss your beautiful smile, your infectious laugh, your tight comforting hugs and your words of encouragement. I will miss playing games with you, celebrating your birthday, and the fun girls nights. Life will never be the same without you in it. I pray you are at peace and I pray for the protection of your little family. Untill we meet again. I'll love you forever!!!