Life is Strange!

I have begun to decide that life is very strange. Why is it strange? That is a good question. I have no idea about the answer and I don't ever think I will. I guess you could say that is why everyday that we have is so interesting, because even if you have a steady schedule and know exactly what you are going to do or accomplish that day, something out of the blue could come and change everything you had planned that day good or bad.
I on the other hand never get that day that goes exactly as you plan for it to go. I do plan however, but for some reason or another it never works out. Am I flaky you ask? The answer is no, I just have that strange thing I have been given that makes everything a surprise. Some surprises are good and some are bad (mostly bad or unfortunate) I'm not really sure why. I had this day with my sister a year or so back where we shared our patriotical blessings. She was very suprised that about 6 or 7 times it said there would be trials in my life. All in different ways of corse, but nevertheless it was there. She was confused as I have been all my life. There is this joke amonsked the people that know me. "I'm a walking streak of bad luck!" they say. You think that is a joke untill you really get to know me. Everything I say good or bad blows up in my face sooner or later, everything I own has something wrong with it after I purchase it (I don't even have to touch it) everything I do has a side effect (usually negative) even if I do it for good.
What is the point of this letter you say? Well I just needed a venting session with myself for a min. Where am I going in life. I have goals and am working on them, but why do all of these things happen to me to prevent me from reaching my goals. I thought we were here on earth to set goals and reach them, to learn as we grow so that we can reach our goals. How can I reach the goals that I set if things get in my way and blow up the opprotunity. I always seem to start from scratch over and over again. I don't set a goal and then run from it. I set the goal and work very hard to achieve it and then everything blows up so I end up trying again.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm at a loss. I've finaly come to a standstill on life. Am I going backwards or forwards this week, am I going to regret the things that happen this week or am I actually going to have a positive experience. My attitude will be the same when aproching the week. "I'm going to have a good week, and everything will be just fine."
who knows maybe I will. Just maybe this week will be rewarding.