The Life of Malinda

A struggle of the Human Soul!!!

2012-01-08T21:22:00.003-07:00

People may try to bring me down and some might secede at times. Some people might spread imformation about me, that I know for a fact isn't true. It might hurt a lot and it might presuade a few people to believe the wrong things. I might cry, get angry, get sad, and be confused ( I might figure out the reasons and I might never figure out the reasons), either way it is betrail. Why does this happen? Well we will never really know. It could be because of jeliousy, or a way that person makes themself feel better if the attack is on you (I have never fully understood that) but either way it happens.
This train of thought stems from recent events in my life. I am a good person, and I give my all to a friendship everytime. I have respect for others and I always give the benifit of the doubt. anotherwords I where my heart on my sleve, but some people find it thrilling to take advantage of that side of me so I am forced to not trust anyone and be stuborn, selfish and so on. this is very unfortunate because people miss out on so much in life when they hurt others. This is a constant trial in my life. I have never understood why but I have to constantly learn how to forgive people.

Inspiration!!!

2011-12-01T17:18:00.001-07:00

The hardest weekend of my life!

2011-10-26T18:36:00.006-06:00

This past weekend was your funeral and was nearly impossible for my emotions. I found myself so sick to my stomach. I cried harder then I have ever cried in my life, random things would make me just sobb. It was hard to see you in that stupid box, it made me mad, sad and plain unhappy. I just kept saying to myself "This isn't right, This shouldn't be happening." We were supposed to grow old and grey together, we were suposed to have girls nights in the nursing home laughing about our childhood and the stupid things we all did. You were suposed to watch your kids grow up, get married and acomplish so many things in their lives. We were supposed to end this life together not one of us leave so young.
I'm relieved that your not in pain anymore, but my heart is sad that I can't hug you or talk to you or go through lifes experiences with you. Thank you Renae for this wonderful poem.

God saw you getting tired and a cure was not to be. So He put his arms around you and whispered "Come with Me." With tearful eyes I watched you, and saw you pass away. Although I loved you dearly, I could not make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest. God broke my heart to prove to me he only takes the best. Put this on your status if there is someone in Heaven you miss every day. I love you Whitney Fuller Dow, and I always will. You will forever be in my heart.

There is a hole in my heart and a pain that I can't shake.

2011-10-17T22:25:00.002-06:00

Whitney you are my best friend. We have been through a lot together for many years. When you told me you had colon cancer three years ago I knew this day would eventually come. No matter how hard I have tried to prepare myself I find this day that it was all a waste of time, because as the years have taught me you can never prepare emotions. I have cryed so much in the past 24 hrs sence I learned of your passing that the stress of it has created an ache in my body. This week is going to be really tough on all of us you have left behind, but even though I am extreemly sad, I am greatful that you are no longer in pain. You will always have a place in my heart and I will always love you. I am so extreemly greatful that I have had the pleasure of having you in my life. You have taught me to have strength, bravery, and to live my life as best as I can and to enjoy every moment. I will miss your beautiful smile, your infectious laugh, your tight comforting hugs and your words of encouragement. I will miss playing games with you, celebrating your birthday, and the fun girls nights. Life will never be the same without you in it. I pray you are at peace and I pray for the protection of your little family. Untill we meet again. I'll love you forever!!!

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Life is an interesting place isn't it?

2011-08-31T15:50:00.003-06:00

It seems to be that the older I get the less I understand life's choices and trials. Lately I have often found myself Stuck with this emptiness that I haven't felt in a lot of years. What are these feelings and why didn't I feel them when I was suppose to 13 yrs ago? I don't understand all of the reasons why I need to deal with this now instead of when my Dad passed, but I do know one thing is that I haven't ever been this close to my intuition in my life. It seems to be that I am more in tune with my emotions, and feelings. Everything seems so deep and meaningful. I think I'm finely coming out of my shell and everything just seems so real. I'm pretty sure it has something to do with me not wanting to live through everyone else. I need to make all decisions on my own and not care what everyone else thinks or says. I have a feeling this will be a constant struggle.

I bet you all thought I forgot this blog existed!!!

2011-08-29T10:49:00.010-06:00

It seems like ages sence I wrote last on here. I have had a roller coaster life for the past year. Loseing hope, trying to stay aflot, figuring out life's purposes, making huge decisions, etc. I have come to terms with the fact that no matter what I do or how much I try to please everyone, there will always be someone in my life that doesn't agree or choses to be offended by the decisions I make and the roads in life that I chose. I have been so focused on what everyone thinks that I haven't been able to make the proper decisions in life. This is my own fault. I have worked really hard the past year to change this. I have had a really hard time with this because I thought it was being selfish, but it isn't I need to focus on my own life and my own decisions. I need to do what is best for me and if others don't like it I can't be effected, so here are some of the events that have happened the last few months.

I got a great nephew Russell Adam Williams in March. From my Neice and Nephew Chaney and Doran Williams. Isn't he adorable? I think so.

I found a great love for making cupcakes, it is so much fun, so I made some for my sister Virginia's Birthday in April.

My Nephew Marcus played the piano for Cargegie Hall in New York!!! This is Totally awesome. We were all so proud of him, this is a great acomplishment. Mom was so excited to fly there and see him play.
My Nephew Jerry graduated from High School and got Called to a mission in California. We are all so proud of him also, and excited for him. This is a huge acomplishement in his life.

We Celebrated my Mom's 70th Birthday this year. We had a party for her and my nephew Matthew who turned 9 at a park in Boise Idaho. It was a lot of fun.

I got a new great neice Lauran Abigail Cox. From my neice and nephew Kim and Michael Cox. She is so adorable and precious. I could have held her all day!! This is their second child.

And Last but not least I made a huge scary decision in my life to quit my job, leave everything and pick up and move to St George Utah. I need a change and I need to move things around in my life, so here I am moved in with my sister Bonnie, searching everyday for a job or two or three, and starting over. I'm hoping this is the last time I have to do this. I would really like to find that place where I can stay for a long time. Longer then a year or two. here are some pics of my travels on the road.

Music Fest 2010

2010-07-25T16:14:00.002-06:00

Way too many people here today!!! Hot, muggy, crowded, sucky view, and completely crazy! The music was awesome however and I ended up having a good time!

Monster Jam 2010

2010-07-25T16:04:00.003-06:00

My Boss got me free tickets to the Monster Truck Jam so I took my nephews. We had so much fun. I don't remember the last time I saw those boys so happy and giddy!!!! I love to see them smile!

Lost and Found!

2010-03-15T10:41:00.003-06:00

I found this little stray puppy in my neighborhood. I feel so bad for little animals who are negleted by their owners. These owners don't want anything to do with it. It is a little 6-8month old brown and black chihuahua! I wish so much I could keep the little guy. He is the sweetest thing and has such a cute personality. I am looking for a home for him so I don't have to take him to the Humane Society! People make me ANGRY!!!!! why do they get animals if they don't want to take care of them and why wouldn't they just find it another home instead of just letting it loose in the neighborhood and letting it freeze in the winter? I'm actually supprised that it is still alive. I have been trying to catch it sence Nov. I don't know how it stayed alive this long!

THE BIGGEST LOSER!!!

2010-03-15T10:39:00.001-06:00

I have decided to try out for the biggest loser! I'm am totally excited! My sister and I are going to SLC this weekend. I really hope we get on. I know it will help us both so much!

The Holidays!!

2009-12-29T09:17:00.002-07:00

This year the Holidays have been quite great! We have a new sister in the Idaho clan now and it was so nice to spend christmas with her and her three boys. We haven't been able to do that in a while. It has also been nice having her live here. I have had someone to hang out with on my days off and I have been able to spend lots of time with her boys.
Christmas went by fairly quickly but it was enjoyable. We had our fair share of the flu epidemic but we have hopefully surpassed that and can enjoy the new year. I can't believe it is 2010 already! I hope everyone has had a great Christmas Holiday!

Happy New Year Everyone!!

Another Neice is married!!!

2009-10-18T17:28:00.004-06:00

Yet again another grandchild has gotten Married before me! Oh Well She was beautiful and I'm happy for her. This is Chaney another of Val's children!

My Bro's Edventure!!

2009-07-12T21:35:00.003-06:00

The other Day my brother Dean got into a crash on the highway in his big rig. I always get so nervous with my brother's driving truck anyway but when they have accidents I get even more issues about it. He is luckily not hurt just shook up. Thank you to a good friend for sending me this add. I didn't realize he made it into the news.

YEAH! I'M A GREAT AUNT!!!!!

2009-07-12T21:30:00.004-06:00

I am officially a great aunt. I feels weird, but I'm way excited for this new venture in life. I'm so proud of Mommy and Daddy for their accomplishments and their beautiful new miracle of life. Here are some pics, she is adorable as ever.

The Lift Off, Finaly!

2009-05-29T00:06:00.003-06:00

It seems like decades since I had the idea of starting my own nanny agency, but with determination and dedication, I have finally launched my very own business
(Coast to Coast Nannies, LLC)in which I am very excited and proud to say good job me. It has been harder then I ever thought it would be and a good English class in school that I never really got would have come in handy on several occasions. So here it is folks the Birth of Coast to Coast Nannies, LLC. Spread the word and help me welcome many families and nannies to use my services from COAST TO COAST!

www.coast-to-coast-nannies.com

Thank you very much for all your help and support!!

IT IS COMPLETLY AMAZING!!

2009-05-07T22:45:00.003-06:00

I am FINALLY done with school. I get to sleep in tomorrow yeah!!!! I don't have to be sick anymore. a couple months ago I found out I'm allergic to acrylic and have been getting more sick the longer I'm around it. I get really bad symptoms, my airway closes up and I can't breath, my eyes itch, I sneeze A LOT! and I get that deep croupy cough. IT SUCKS A TON. It will take a few days to get totally out of my system and it is a huge money loss for me in the business, but I will be happy to get back to normal finally. No more breathing treatments.

NEW NEWS!

2009-04-06T12:49:00.002-06:00

FINALLY!! I have a nanny agency YEAH!!! I'm way excited. I'm hoping to get a great launch with it this summer. I have 3 prospective clients already. My agency is called "Coast to Coast Nannies" I will be hiring nannies and bringing in clients from everywhere in the US obviously by the name Coast to Coast. Spread the word, if you know anyone that needs a nanny or a nanny that needs a family!!!!!! I'll be done with Nail school in just 4 weeks and I can't wait. Have a good day everyone!!!

Yeah! school finaly!

2009-01-25T19:48:00.002-07:00

Hey everyone. I finally started my nail tech school. I'm totally LOVING IT! I'll post pics later. I have never thought school was so fun in my life. Anyway. Things are going great so far. I hope everyone is doing well.

Yeah! I'm back.

2008-12-17T20:52:00.002-07:00

Well Finaly I'm back in Boise Idaho where I should be. The baby is completly adorable. when I get pictures posted then you can see just how cute he really is. I'm 100% sure you will all agree with me. When I got back my body was like a ton of bricks. I was so tired and so was Molly. I certainly haven't had much time to rest before getting back into the real things of life. I'm now dog & house sitting for someone untill christmas eve and during that time I'm also babysitting someone's 4 kids for a week untill christmas eve, meanwhile finding a job, getting things ready to start school up in Jan. and taking care if my own dog, oh yeah and christmas shopping, cause heaven knows I haven't had any time to do that. Anyway, things are going busy but good. I hope everyone has a MARRY CHRISTMAS AND A GREAT NEW YEAR!!!

nothing changing, still the same!

2008-11-20T23:11:00.002-07:00

Hey everyone! Nothing is really changing in my life. I'm still here in Mt. Pleasant with my brother. I'm having a good time seeing my brothers. I don't get to see them much so this is really good for me. Molly has gotten sick sence we have been down here in podunk. She gave me a really big scare because the Polvo virus is going around in dogs down here and that is deadly. The vet said that is what her symptoms are. she has an infection and is on two meds for a while. we arn't out of the dark for the virus, but I think she will be ok. I was realy emotional for a while. Wow! Thanksgiving time already. I hope everyone has a great day. The baby will be coming soon and I can go back to real life. It will be nice to get back to my old self and schedule again. I start school in Jan. I had to postpone it to come here, but that is ok, Family comes first anyway and I'm glad I could help. All in all it is creating a closer relationship with my neices and nephews that I don't get to see that often. Well I hope all is well in everyone's life. Have a good one!

The Desert!

2008-10-02T10:42:00.003-06:00

I'm writing from MT. Pleasant Utah where I will be for the next 2 or 3 months. I cenrtainly don't miss it down here. It is dry and boring. So all my friends that live close by we need to do something because I am going to go crazy.
For those of you who don't know. I'm down here because my sister in-law is on stricted bedrest untill her baby is born. Her and my brother have 4 kids. My brother has to work, therefore leaving nobody to take care of the house or kids. Hope everyone is well. I'll post more another time.

Sorry about this posting pause!

2008-09-16T14:54:00.003-06:00

It has been a log time, so here is a small update. Things are still crazy and will be for a while yet. I have just changed schools to make yet another goal to finish school. I have gotten into Nail Tech. I'm way excited, because I've always wanted to do this and in 4 short months, I will have a hobby to do on the side and an emergency money maker if needed. I will be learning air brushing which I think will become my favorite technique. I can't wait to practice on everyone, so get in line for an appointment. I have moved back in with my mom. I know 25 living with your mom, but this is what I see, she is living her all alone and I'm living all alone. There is no need for both of us to be doing that, so I moved in. My mom is great and this will be a good situation, plus I'm tired of moving around, so here at least I'm somewhat settled.

Things with the family were finally settling and becoming somewhat normal until the news of my brother in-law's recent test results. My sister gave us all a call to tell us that Jack went in for routine test results for his liver ( for those of you who don't know the situation, he had a liver transplant about 4 yrs ago) they said that his numbers are supposed to be in the 40s and they are currently in the 300's, which means that his body is slowly rejecting his new liver. You can only get one liver transplant in your life so he is not to get another. The doctors started him on a new med that will slow the rejection period, but in the end his liver will stop and he will die from this. The doctors are not sure of a time limit, so he could die in a week, month or whatever. AGH! They come in three's and I hate this.

I also found out today that my niece got some blood work done this week and the doctors might have found a small tumor on her brain. She will be sent to a specialist to find out more information.

Our family will be doing a huge fast for my niece and my brother in-law and their families. So much for normal or settling down.
Well that is the update so far. Thank you all for keeping in touch.

Thoughts and Prayers for A dear friend!

2008-08-15T22:57:00.004-06:00

My dear friend Whitney Dow(Fuller)has be dignosed with grade 4 (incurable) colon cancer. She has great support behind her with her family, husband two children and her friends. We would all like to send our support,love and prayers for her. Please join us as we help her fight as long as she needs to. She will be starting chemo in three weeks. We love you Whitney and hope for the best always. Please don't be afraid to turn for help with anything.

Update!

2008-08-10T22:48:00.002-06:00

I don't write much because not much worth writing about happens in my life. I just moved back to Boise and I'm still looking for a better job. I'm currently trying to get a job with a family in Wyoming (wish me luck). Anyway things are moving along in life, not much to say, I just wanted to let everyone know that I was still alive. I have found plenty of things to do to keep me busy and out of trouble so my mom would say. I'm in the process of making a family video for my siblings. We are trying to put genology on movie form. It is hard but really cool. I have a sibling that is having child #5. We just found out it is going to be a boy, that will make #28 grandchild for us. The numbers are getting up there, too bad there arn't any kids of mine included in that number so my mom says (I'm not really sure how I feel). I love this time of year because it is demo durby time YEAH!!! I'm way excited to go to the fair and watch crazy people run into each other at full speeds in these peice of junk cars and smash the heck out of them. Some years you get luck and one or two of the cars either flip over or start on fire a couple of times. I know that is weird that I like it but oh well what can I say, it is great fun.

My Nephew got Married!

2008-07-24T11:51:00.009-06:00

Ok, so I know I haven't posted any real events in a while so here is your update! In May of this year my Nephew Michael got married. This will be grandchild #2 that is now married. You would think I was married by now, but as it goes I'm not. Here are some photos! Enjoy!

Memories!

2008-07-17T11:50:00.000-06:00

Here is a fun little game...Leave a comment on my blog of a memory that you and I have had together. It doesn't matter if you've known me for a short time, or a long time, anything you remember! Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.On your mark...get set...blog your memories!!

Privacy!!

2008-06-30T12:08:00.002-06:00

I'm changing my blog to private. Please send me your email address. so I can add you. I've decided it is probley for the best. I have most of your addresses but for some of you I have doubles, so I need to know what one to add. I would like to do this soon, so post as fast as you can. Thanks!

GOOD LUCK WITH THAT BABY GIN!!

Shout out!

2008-06-16T23:18:00.005-06:00

Well as you all know I don't have a reason here on earth to celebrate Father's day, so as you can imagine my day was kind of boring. I'm having a hard time still considering I just started dealing with it all so I chose to stay home from church yesterday. I go to a family ward and I know that I would just cry all day and have a bad time and not be able to focus on anything else so I had personal study instead. I did always enjoy Father's day and looked forward to it every year. this will be my 10Th year not having a reason. Well this year I decided to give a shout out to all those people in my life that were like a father to me. My brother Steven is one of them. Always protecting me, wanting the best for me, looking out for me, sticking up for me when others are trying to bring me down, interviewing all my dates and boyfriends (man he was mad when I started dating a guy once without telling him, aah he loves me) and to this day he still is. Thanks Bro. Also Gini and Merissa you can say thanks to your Daddy. He is a great guy and you are very blessed you have him in your life, even if he does give you a hard time about every little thing and gives three hour lectures on every safety thing in your life. He loves you so so so much and that is why he does that. Please tell him thank you for always excepting me and treating me just like his own daughter for the last 15yrs. I have a lot of things in my life to thank his advice, love, support and blessings for. Happy Father's Day to all you Dads out there! One of these days I'll have the opportunity to be involved again :) I love you Dad!

Suprise, it's about my dog.

2008-05-28T22:29:00.009-06:00

So Molly and I had a photo shoot a while ago. I was trying to get some good pictures of her for these frames on my wall. She was so good for me. I think secretly she loves the attention, shhhhh!

I know some of you may say I'm a little obsessed, but when you don't have kids or anyone else for that matter you have your dog.

But you have to admit, she is adorable.

My luck has struck again, only this time with a bang!

2008-05-20T22:14:00.003-06:00

Sorry folks, I haven't written for a while. I have had WAY TOOO much to deal with and at the end of the day I just want to sleep. So a couple of weeks ago I went to Utah for my nephew's wedding. Yes my nephew is now married. I know I'm too young to have this happen, Believe me I have already ran this through my head a couple of times and have threatened the bride and groom that they are not to have children until I'm 30 yrs old or at least married. They said hurry (thanks a lot to them) Anyway I drove my car down and my mom and sister drove it back because I had to leave a day earlier then them. On their way home some dude decided to check out the beautiful land instead of the road and crashed into the passenger side of my car going 80 miles an hour! (yes my new one, I haven't even had it a year yet)No one was hurt just scared and shaken up. I was already having a crappy day and also that day I woke up really sick with high fever, sore thought (basically the works)I'm just glad my family wasn't hurt. I had to get a rental because I was told not to drive it. I missed a day of work because of no car and I got stuck with a crappy piece of tin they like to call a ford focus. Sorry to anyone who owns one, but they are stupid and a waste of money. In the slightest bit of wind I was blown all over the road. I felt like a little bug on the road with the rest of the cars. anyway the day I was to give back the tin box I stoped for gas because I had to give it back with a full tank. I was sitting in line cause the gas station was very busy that day. I put the car in park reached down to get something out of my purse and BAM! I was hit by the lady in front of me. She didn't see me in the little car behind her because she didn't have a rear view mirror, so she slammed on her gas peddle and rammed into the front end of the rental car. I am still dealing with that. I have my car back, but have lost a lot of money in the process. I just wish people would take into count others around them. Anyways I also got a new dog and some baby chicks. I'll post pictures another time. Sorry it took me so long to update but here you go. And Congrats to all my friends who are pregnant or just had a baby. I love you all and wish you the very best.

What goes through a person's mind sometimes?

2008-04-13T21:18:00.001-06:00

I know, I know. I haven't writen in a while. So here you go!
I was driving home from work one day, STARVING I might add and there is this McDonalds on my way home. Now I don't normally go to this discusting place, but I was so hungry I was shaking and was having a hard time driving home, so I went there. I went through the drive through and this is what I clearly ordered. I said " I would like two snack wraps a med. fry and a diet dr pepper." The lady said what kid of snack wraps would you like? I said, " crispy ranch" I saw my order on the screen and it said 1 diet dr pepper, 1 med fry, 1 crisp snack wrap. I said no, no I would like two crispy snack wraps please, so she put on another one. Why am I telling you this you ask? well here I'll tell you. So I get up to the window and the girl asks me if I want a drink holder. I said no and thought to myself "Why in the world would I want a drink holder for one drink?" well she begins to hand me a sprit and a dr pepper. I said no I didn't order a sprit, so she took it back and gave me the other one. then she asked for my money and I said no that isn't enough I explained to her that I order two crispy snack wraps. so she rang me up the difference for the sprit and the snack wrap. She gave me my bag. It had two snack wraps in it. I looked back up to her and said where are my fries I ordered. She said oh I'm sorry I didn't know you ordered fries the manager didn't put them on. so she gave me my frys for free. I thanked her and precedded to drive away. I opened the bag and noticed that I had two grilled chicken wraps not crispy ranch. I went right back through the drive through and got to the window. I said, "You don't want me to eat today do you?" I explained to her that I had the wrong order yet again. So the lady that took my order(a manager) came out and said, "what seems to be the problem mam" I said well you see when you took my order I ordered two crispy ranch snack wraps, a med fry and a med diet dr pepper. You gave me one snack wrap a sprit and a dr pepper. Now who in their write mind would order two different drinks for them selves. Then I said no I ordered two snack wraps and you gave me the wrong ones. I want two crispy ranch and a med fry not sprit. and my dr pepper isn't diet. what if I had diepetes? You could have sent me into a sugar colma. My order isn't hard. I didn't ask for any subsitutes or any additives. it is simple two crispy ranch snack wraps, 1 med fry and 1 med diet dr pepper. to make a really long story shorter, I got my meal for free and the manager go in trouble. not to mention she was totally nasty with me and I kept my cool.

I don't understand that person's thought process. they weren't, busy there was only one other car infront of me and yet she was uncomprehensive and runing around like a chicken with it's head cut off. Man I don't get it!

I have never had my order messed up so much before. How do people live their lives like that? always brain dead.

Are our blogs so boring that you have to ask us certain questions to spice it up?

2008-03-27T21:59:00.004-06:00

Risa Roo (Merissa) tagged me to do this, so here you go...

1. What I was doing ten years ago...HA, funny thing I was 14 and hanging out with Gini and Merissa, eating that interesting banana bread they are talking about and doing all the arts and crafts they came up with. Remember the pompom bears??? Also My brother lost his arm in a farming accident, and my Dad passed away (wow can you believe it has been ten years?)Those years were very tough times in my life. Thanks to those who helped me through all of it.

2. Five things to do today. Well ok,
*I Went to work
*came home
*did some yard work
*Cleaned some of my house
*watched a show that I had missed at the beginning of the week
WOW! interesting life I lead!

3. What snacks do I enjoy? I have to say Ice cream is my most favorite, but I do like a choc chip cookie now and then. As all of you know i use to be the friend who acted drunk when she had a little too much sugar to eat, so now that I'm an adult I don't really have sweets that much. I know, for those of you who enjoyed it and have me on film, HA HA, I have become kind of boring. I can still have a good time, don't get me wrong, just in a healthier way.

4. What would I do if I suddenly became a millionaire?
WOW! one can say all the things you would do with a million, but we all know that as soon as you really get it your mind changes. First I would pay off all my bills, then pay off all my mom's bills and I honestly don't know what I would do with the rest. Live a life with a little bit less stress I guess!

5. 3 bad habits...
*procrastination (yes I've admitted it folks)
*not completing projects when I intend to
*not letting someone be the leader in something for once

6. 5 things people don't know about me...well,I'm not really sure, my life is kind of an open book. Let me think....
* I just ended a relationship with a 40 yr old. (no he isn't on the email list for this)I know, what was I thinking? but you will get over it!
* Yeah, I'm going to free style motor cross in two days!
* I'm allergic to watermelon, cantaloupe, frosting, cats & bees (but I'm sure most of you knew that, sorry)
* I am a clean freak! crap some of you know that also. I'm bad at this
* I'm very rarely late for anything. If I'm late it is more times then not the other person's fault that I'm with at the time.

If you want to know more about me (the oh so interesting one!) then you will have to send me another one of these ridiculous surveys! I tag Kenneth & Whitney!

Finaly some hope!

2008-03-13T22:45:00.003-06:00

As most of you know I've been out of work for a while. I was sooooooo confused and didn't know if 4 months of applying everywhere and getting nothing was a sign I shouldn't be living in Idaho or if it was just my domb lifestyle of not having any luck and everything having to be so dang difficult, considering my good resume and experience. Well folks the wait is over, I have a FREAKING JOB YEAH!!!!!!! IT'S ABOUT TIME!!!!! Don't ask how I have been paying my bills, they have just been getting paid. No I'm not selling drugs for those of you with twisted minds (namely the Jensen girls, HA HA HA)
Life sometimes kicks you in the butt hard or slaps you in the face. I guess I just needed a little boost. It sucks that it had to happen this way, but you just take it and move on. One trial down for the year, now on to the next 700.
Well It is becoming spring and that means it is time for baby animals to arrive. Mine by truck if you were wondering. I will be recieving baby chicks and baby ducks here pretty soon. I tell you, they are so stinking cute you can't keep your eyes off them. I have a feeling that Molly (my dog) will be feeling a little left out for the next little while sence she is used to 100% of my attention, but baby animals need a ton of attention also. I love this time of year. gardening, Planting flowers, Building fences (in my case), repainting the deck, triming trees and bushes, the house getting painted, and tending to my adorable little baby birds. AHHH if everything else in life were only this good. I'm just glad I get to stay in Idaho. Pay attention to pictures of my new babies comming soon!! Love you all and thanks for all the support.

2008's biggest storm

2008-02-03T21:58:00.000-07:00

And still snowing!

This black strip across the pic is the bottom of my door!

Poor Fishies in the pond!

This is the most snow we have had in a while. In fact I don't honestly remember this much snow sence my Jr. yr in High school up here. This is our 4 big snow storm. This is what I woke up to this morning and it continued to snow big heavy flakes all day. This is very heavy packing snow, which causes great obsticals for the driver's on the road. We have has so many deaths caused by our storms this year. I love to see the snow, because I think it is so beautiful, but I HATE going out in it and driving in it. There are so many unexperienced drivers on the road that you are literaly afraid of your life and the lives around you. The biggest problem here in Idaho is the tempature. The snow wouldn't be so bad if it wern't 20 or below most of the time. There have been such think sheets of ice on the roads that my car couldn't physicaly go any faster then 20 mph and I felt like I was driving across a cattle guard for most of the drive because of what the ice had done to the road. Man I'm moving to Arizona first chance I get. Wait Jamica sounds nice to.

Our Prophet!!

2008-01-30T14:35:00.000-07:00

WOW! This is really sad. President Hinkley has been the prophet for the majority of my life so it will be really weird to be without him. I'm sure the other men chosen for the rest of my life will be great. They usually are. My friends and I at work were searching about him and after some grueling anti mormon stuff there was I found this wonderful memory. on the right under his picture. A bunch of you might have already seen them as I'm sure they are popular, but I liked them. Enjoy!

Sick Again!

2008-01-29T22:06:00.000-07:00

Freak! I swear. As soon as I said I wasn't going to get sick I got sick two weekends in a row. Last weekend I had the flue (YUCK!) and this week I wake up with the worst sore throught in the history of my life. It is in my chest, I can't breath because of the asthma symptoms from it, My chest feels like I have something extreemly hot and heavy sitting on it and worst of all I sound like a freaking man. No offence to men, but I'm a woman and shouldn't sound like that.
All the people at work thought I was in a bad mood because of my voice and heavy breathing. I wasn't mad at all, infact I was just as fine as any other day. I did tell them however that I was going to get mad if they kept asking me if I was mad. AGH!!

I've been Tagged

2008-01-28T00:44:00.000-07:00

The rules of the game should be posted at the beginning of the post. Each player lists 6 facts/habits about themselves. At the end of the post, the player then tags 6 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

1.I'm still single. That's a shocker! I get into a relationship with a great guy, he tells me all these things he wants to do that involves me, he tells me that he loves me and wants to spend the rest of his life with me and the goes and marries another person. Got to love domb luck! At least I don't attract gay guys that's a relief.

2.I just found out before Christmas that I'm going to be a great aunt before I'm 25. I really do have a problem with this. Great aunts are for old people. No offence to old people, but I feel that I'm too young to be a great aunt. My niece got married last year and my nephew is getting married this year. Yeah for me! Again still single.

3. I'm currently going to school at ITT Tech. for a degree in Web Design and working towards being able to open my own nanny agency in the future. I've been a nanny for almost 7 years now and absolutely love it. Hey it pays good for taking care of other people's kids.

4. I'm the youngest of 12 and have 9 niece's and 16 nephews and 1 great niece or nephew on the way, but all you that know me already knew that. Oh well the rules didn't say anything about posting information you all ready knew.

5. I've lived in 5 different states almost one every year since I graduated high school(New York, Utah, Idaho, Massachusetts, and Virginia), have officially been to every new England state to visit and have driven from one end of the US to the other 4 times in the last 1 1/2 yrs. WOW! ok, that is like 3 things in one, sorry.

6. July of 2007 was the 10th aniversary for my Father's Death. The same day you Kenneth went into the guard. HA HA, What a qawinkie dink. Bet you didn't think I remembered.

I've sent this to Gini/Andy, Merissa/Chris, Kara/Matt. And well I have to break the rules, because I only know three not counting the person that sent it to me that have blog so you will all get over it soon.

Life is Strange!

2008-01-27T17:19:00.000-07:00

I have begun to decide that life is very strange. Why is it strange? That is a good question. I have no idea about the answer and I don't ever think I will. I guess you could say that is why everyday that we have is so interesting, because even if you have a steady schedule and know exactly what you are going to do or accomplish that day, something out of the blue could come and change everything you had planned that day good or bad.
I on the other hand never get that day that goes exactly as you plan for it to go. I do plan however, but for some reason or another it never works out. Am I flaky you ask? The answer is no, I just have that strange thing I have been given that makes everything a surprise. Some surprises are good and some are bad (mostly bad or unfortunate) I'm not really sure why. I had this day with my sister a year or so back where we shared our patriotical blessings. She was very suprised that about 6 or 7 times it said there would be trials in my life. All in different ways of corse, but nevertheless it was there. She was confused as I have been all my life. There is this joke amonsked the people that know me. "I'm a walking streak of bad luck!" they say. You think that is a joke untill you really get to know me. Everything I say good or bad blows up in my face sooner or later, everything I own has something wrong with it after I purchase it (I don't even have to touch it) everything I do has a side effect (usually negative) even if I do it for good.
What is the point of this letter you say? Well I just needed a venting session with myself for a min. Where am I going in life. I have goals and am working on them, but why do all of these things happen to me to prevent me from reaching my goals. I thought we were here on earth to set goals and reach them, to learn as we grow so that we can reach our goals. How can I reach the goals that I set if things get in my way and blow up the opprotunity. I always seem to start from scratch over and over again. I don't set a goal and then run from it. I set the goal and work very hard to achieve it and then everything blows up so I end up trying again.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm at a loss. I've finaly come to a standstill on life. Am I going backwards or forwards this week, am I going to regret the things that happen this week or am I actually going to have a positive experience. My attitude will be the same when aproching the week. "I'm going to have a good week, and everything will be just fine."
who knows maybe I will. Just maybe this week will be rewarding.

Josh Groban. YEAH!!

2008-01-11T23:02:00.000-07:00

To end the crazy year of 2007, I went with my mom, two of my sisters and my grandma to the wonderful Josh Groban Concert that came to Idaho. Needless to say, it was AMAZING! Even if you don't like Josh Groban's music (which I do) you would have loved his concert anyway. That man can preform. Any who, it was lots of fun.

My dog!

2007-09-07T16:30:00.000-06:00

About 10 months ago I rescued a Chihuahua from the human society. She is purbread and totally cute. Her name is Molly and she has such a cute personality. She loves all her toys. Her favorite is the duck.

She also loves her bed and thinks that is has 8 ft walls around it, so when she is in it no one can get to her it is the cutiest thing.

Somedays She is a complete menis and pees when she is scared, but we are learning and will get it eventually that we don't pee on mommies carpet or lap.

What can I say? she must belong to me because there is something wrong with her. isn't that with everything I own?

My life!!

2007-09-07T15:49:00.000-06:00

I'm currently living in Caldwell Idaho and loving it. I just recently moved here into my brother's house and love the peace and quite of the neighborhood. Thanks to him I now have 5 chickens and 3 couye in a pond they built. It is going to be a lot of work in the summer months, but totally worth the satisfaction of acomplishment when I'm done. The yard has tons and tons of flower beds that are so much fun in the spring. You never know when kinds of flowers are going to apear. There is a blackberry bush, a rasberry bush, grape vines and an apracot tree. I'm so excited to learn how to can and make jam this summer and fall.

Vacation Time and the beautiful sights!

2007-09-07T15:36:00.000-06:00

I had my vacation for the year of 2007. It was so much fun to spend some quality time with the extended fam. I went on a looooooong road trip with my cousin Kathryn, to see her parents on their mission in Nauvoo. I love that place, it is so peaceful and welcoming. I always come back feeling a little better about life and such. We met some famous people in the church and saw wonderful plays and most of all the Nauvoo pageant. The Temple was so magnificent. I honestly could have stared at it for hours. We had tons of fun and were sad to leave this peaceful place and go back to the busy world.